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Monday, August 30, 2010

Home Metephors

Yesterday I went home to my house which I haven't stepped foot in since June 24th. I didn't actually get to step foot in it - more like drove my wheelchair into my home. Things have changed and stayed the same - all the same, it was bittersweet experience for me.

Changes - Never take for granted the opportunity you have for health and the ability to walk independently. Now we have a huge wheelchair ramp that takes up our garage. Instead of a two car garage we have a wheelchair ramp and one car garage.

Doors were widened. My walker had to be right by me at all times. Couch was too close to get off the ground for me to stand up and be able to walk easily. I am now the proud owner of two toilet raisers. I never thought I would have to use these! The front lawn was completely torn up to place in the new sprinkler system and to do landscaping.

How this relates - Things have stayed the same. - I am grateful that I am simply alive. I required 16 units of blood to keep me going during the trauma surgeries. The average person requires 8. There is a huge reason that I am still here and I am thankful for my health and for the opportunity to have my legs and to walk with assistance.

Instead of my doors being widen, my heart has. Thank you to all of my family members where ever you may be for your love support and prayers and for all of the wonderful little things that have opened my heart to see how much I am blessed. And how grateful I am for my individual relationship with all my family members.

To all my friends, thank you for taking time out of your busy lives to come and provide a wide opportunity for tears, laughter, making up for old times and showing me that your friends can provide you with strength to keep going. You are like the walker I have to use now. My friends are always there when I need strength to stand. Also like the walker that is brand new, through this experience I have gained new friendships that are amazing.

To the toilet raisers - The thing that has stayed the same is that I continue to need the use of a toilet as all of us do. Thank heavens for toilets! This experience has proved to be that I can raise above anything - including the toilet!

To the torn up lawn - this experience has torn be to pieces. Physically - I have never dealt with intense physically pain - that I thought would never get better or ever go away. Emotionally - I have been "broken" to pieces, I never thought that I would walk away from August 27th with empty arms that would not hold my dear, sweet and tender Livi - that I waited so long to have.

As the lawn is getting fixed - I hope my fixing will come in time with healing. Physically I have started to heal and are learning each day that slowly the physical pain is decreasing. Emotionally I will always be torn in pieces but as a new lawn provides beauty, this experience of being a Mom to Livi is beautiful and I will never regret all that I have learned - it has been beautiful.

Here is to wheelchair ramps, toilet seat raisers, walkers and a new lawn. Here is to coming home!

15 comments:

Shelley M said...

You are a writer, Corrine! Love you

sheehy_5 said...

You and Damon have touched all our life's with the grace, dignity, strength and courage that you have both shown. We are so happy that you get to go home! We love you both! love, Aunt Tammy, Uncle Tom, Melissa and Kayla

Mira said...

When do you get to go home?

Self Family said...

We're so glad you were able to go home!!!! Congratulations! Love, Lee, Kris and Dani Self

Bethany Hopkins said...

Corrine I love the metaphors. They are a good reminder that we can always be learning, we just have our hearts open for the opportunity.

Anonymous said...

Yay! how exciting you got to go home! We love you! love the Wellisch Family!

Anonymous said...

Are you home to stay?....YAY...so excited you got to go home....We love you.
Love the Chidesters :)

nennermommy said...

You are so cute! I am excited to visit you at home!

Julie said...

The other day in church we were talking about trials, and how sometimes we have trials in our lives to help others. I thought, "Well, that's just not fair at all." I can tell you one thing though, you have taught me so much personally, and my heart continues to ache over what you and Damon have gone through. Thank you for your strength & inspiration, and please know you are loved SO much.

Tanya said...

How wonderful and hard it must have been to go home! You are so amazing. I love reading your thoughts and am so impressed with your strength.

I came across this quote the other day and it really resonated with me and what Tim and I have been going through. I thought maybe you would appreciate it too.

"Love the moment. Flowers grow out of dark moments. Therefore, each moment is vital. It affects the whole. Life is a succession of such moments and to live each, is to succeed."
-Corita Kent

We love you guys!

Jessica said...

Are you home for the duration or just visiting? It is sooo exciting! Going home after the loss of Elizabeth was one of the hardest things. It was nice to be home. But, it felt empty. You are a miraculous and positive person. However, it is still okay to grieve -- to be sad and angry.

I love your metaphors. Life really does provide a wide array of lessons. Perhaps you will become a motivational speaker someday. You are blessing the lives of all your readers.

Erin said...

I have been meaning to find you on here since you wrote such a thoughtful post on our blog. Rob and I were so touched that you took the time to reach out to us, thank you for being so kind. You and your sweet family have been in our prayers and I want you to know that we have thought about you a lot. Your writing is beautiful and I am so impressed with your honesty and love. I am glad that you are home now. We are thinking of you and send our sincerest condolences your way.
Much love,
Erin Koelliker

Elaine said...

Hi Corrine,
This is Ana Toronto. you and Damon taught me in primary a few years ago. I was so sad to hear about your accident, and my mom has been reading your blog to me. I know that your baby Livi is in heaven and I'm so happy you are getting better and stronger. I love you and Damon both, and have been praying for you. My grandma has a toilet raiser too-so I guess only special people get those.

Love you ,
Ana Toronto

Marie said...

Welcome home! I hope you get a few hours without anyone wanting to touch you. Miss you.

Scott said...

We are so glad that you are progressing. Our thoughts and prayers are with you always.
Scott & Tammy

We were wondering if they allow pets to visit you. We have two new puppies we would love you to meet.