The past couple of weeks has been difficult. We have been creating the beautiful masterpiece of the Garden Butterfly Memorial tree for the Festival of Trees for my little Livi. We put on the lights on two of the smaller items. I think of Livi and the light she was too my life. I loved being pregnant. I loved every night getting online and watching and see how she was developing, inside of me. I remember her first kicks. I remember when I found out I was pregnant. I remember where I was, what time it was and I remember telling a Dear Friend - when she saw me get of the phone with the doctors office...I was crying happy tears. Thanksgiving - Christmas are always so difficult for me. I think of the big table with the whole family seated around, laughing sharing in Thanksgiving Magic and always think there is a little girl maybe with blonde hair or maybe some strawberry blonde hair...that is gone, that is missing. As soon as I found out I was pregnant even before she was here, I had dreams and hopes that were tucked in the corner of my heart that without having her, here with me. I never realized how much those dreams were tied with heartstrings for the future.
I also think that it is really raw emotion for any Mom to have a child die, that brings up a little or big heartache around the holidays.
May we all make sure we shine our light on others and hold each other in the best of light.
Twinkle Twinkle little star do you know how loved you are?
Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
4 comments:
I wish I didn't know what you mean however I do. Every year I think of three little boys who are missing.
Christmas day is Elizabeth's half birthday. Even driving to TX for Thanksgiving I felt like I should be able to turn and see her in her booster seat in the back. Our hopes and dreams stay with us throughout the years.
I'm so glad that you've been able to do a tree in Livi's honor. It enables her to keep on giving.
I will be looking for Livi's tree this weekend. It is a special person who can find ways to bless others through their own grief. How remarkable and generous of you to do a tree for her. Thank you for continuing to share your heart with us, so many people, including myself, are changed for the better because of you and the way you choose to live your life. Love you Corrine!
-Adrienne
I have been checking your blog periodically to see how you are doing since the accident. I have rejoiced in your joys and sorrowed with your heartbreaks. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I was so excited to be able to see your tree at Festival of Trees. It was very beautiful. It was a wonderful tribute to a beautiful little girl. I was very excited to see the pictures of Grayson. He is so cute! I pray for you often and hope that you have a Merry Christmas. Amber
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