Wings

It was over a year in the making.  As soon as I was transferred to my Rehab hospital and we were planning our sweet little Livi's funeral, I immediately thought of the Festival of Trees.  I did an internship at PCMC and also have had many clients and families use their services and I thought it would be a tender way of honoring her and her life and giving back to other children, to keep her memory alive. 

Results: A beautiful tree that was amazing beyond my dreams.  It took sweat, time and lots of hard work and many late hours to put on the glitter, glam and tuelle for the little tree.  I had lots of family that helped from my hubby, to brothers to dad and cousin - who drove the crazy truck down the crazy mountain.  To my Mom, sister in law and the young woman and dear friends.  It made a dream come true.  My art director: I like to call her - asked if Livi would be proud, I say...Yes. Yes. Yes.

Heart Warming:  All of the etsy artisans who opened their hearts and created beautiful masterpieces to give the final touch of miracles and pieces of their heart and heaven to put the softness need to celebrate Livi.  To know that their is still kindness in the world and that people do give of their time and talents.

Livi...there is a tree in your honor that is a butterfly garden memorial...to donate to other little kids that are needing a Guardian angel to help them on their journey.

May we all have wings...to embrace each other and...lift everyone up around us.

Lights

The past couple of weeks has been difficult.  We have been creating the beautiful masterpiece of the Garden Butterfly Memorial tree for the Festival of Trees for my little Livi.  We put on the lights on two of the smaller items.  I think of Livi and the light she was too my life.  I loved being pregnant.  I loved every night getting online and watching and see how she was developing, inside of me.  I remember her first kicks.  I remember when I found out I was pregnant.  I remember where I was, what time it was and I remember telling a Dear Friend - when she saw me get of the phone with the doctors office...I was crying happy tears.  Thanksgiving - Christmas are always so difficult for me.  I think of the big table with the whole family seated around, laughing sharing in Thanksgiving Magic and always think there is a little girl maybe with blonde hair or maybe some strawberry blonde hair...that is gone, that is missing.  As soon as I found out I was pregnant even before she was here, I had dreams and hopes that were tucked in the corner of my heart that without having her, here with me.  I never realized how much those dreams were tied with heartstrings for the future. 

I also think that it is really raw emotion for any Mom to have a child die, that brings up a little or big heartache around the holidays. 

May we all make sure we shine our light on others and hold each other in the best of light.

Twinkle Twinkle little star do you know how loved you are?

Beautiful Heartbreak

Tonight a dear friend of mine, that has been going through her own beautiful heartbreak, shared this music video - with me. She said she thought of me because of the inspirational speaker part. I guess I would have never thought that my life would lead me to become an inspirational speaker. Who would have thought. Now I can say that I have had 3 speaking engagements and a TV appearance. On my way to hopefully touch the lives that need to hear my message.

To all of you - that have had a beautiful heartbreak. I will hold your hand and share with you my heart and help you see your view.

May we all climb to see the view.

http://www.flixya.com/video/4823377/Beautiful-Heartbreak-Hilary-Weeks-Every-Step-